My body is dead,and so is my soul.

You fucked me for days,and now you're gone.

I hate so much.

Yet I still have a crush.

Just get out of my head.

And get the hell out of my bed.

But it’s not always like that.

I miss you so.I can’t forget you,I don’t want to forget you.

I need your smile,your touch,your laugh.This were not so easy with you,but I would probably give everything up,for things to go back the way they were.Am I naive?Maybe.I’m in love,and that’s what people do.When we are in love we do a lot of stupid and nasty things with/for the ones we love.You also did that.You hurt me.You loved me.You took care of me.You left me.And then you came back,like a thunder in the sky.I cried.Cried a lot.But then it stopped.I tried to forget,but I didn’t have the strength to delete you from my life and heart.I always asked why,but you gave me no answer.Do you know how did it hurt?Have you got any idea how I felt?You left.I came back to life.And started everything new.You came back.You rocked my world,and everything fell apart again.

Why did you wanted to see me?There has been so much time.So much time.I tried to control myself,I saw you did to.And I saw that you were hurt to.But why?I wonder till this day.Were you hurt because I wasn’t yours?Or maybe because you knew,that you don’t have your toy no more?Is it so hard to give me the answers?I know that sometimes there are no.

You were standing there,you stopped the time.I wanted kiss you.I wanted you to hug me.I wanted to be safe again.

Now more then often I think of my future.And it’s a blank page.I almost finished school,only few months left and I have no idea what to do next.I know what I want to do,and where I want to go,but sometimes I think I can’t handle it,and I won’t be able to for fill my dreams.

I wanted to do something for my self for one year,but my mom was against it,she said that will be sitting on her neck for a year,like a burden.It was pretty painful to hear.I thought that I could realize what I wanted with my life in that year,but I guess I’ll go study something I don’t even know if I want to.It’s suck a headache.

REBLOG IF YOU HAVE THE SAME DILEMA AS ME. (waiting for some solutions)

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Nors mokykloje nieko neveikiu,ji naikina mano psichologinę pusiausvyrą.Prasidėjo pirmieji mano egzaminai,tiksliau įskaitos.Ir jas išlaikiau daug geriau negu tikėjausi.Anglų surinkau 30 iš 30, o lietuvių 19 iš 20.I'm very proud of myself.Liko dar 4 egzaminai.Wish me luck.

I’m so sick of being sick.

I have no strength,no energy,no life in me.

I'm just a scared little girl.And you are not here to protect me.

I’d come for you,no one but you.

Yes I’d come for you,but only if you want me to.

I miss you.Your voice - Good morning my little sunshine.

I miss you.Your lips - You got something on your lips,let me get that for you.*Kissing*

I miss you.Your smile - *Kuddle kuddle kuddle*

I miss you.Your laugh - The earth is shaking.

I miss you.Your embrace - Are you cold? *hug*

I miss you.Your warmth - It’s so cold without you

There is so many things,that reminds me of you.Every day I see those places were we first kissed.Were held me tight so I won’t get cold.Were you spread my arms,and said that you’re not letting me go.You said that we will even fall together.I remember those hot summer days,when we sat on benches and ate ice-cream,then you would smear your ice-cream on my nose,neck,lips then laughed how dirty I was,and you helped me clean up.I remember those soft lips on my neck.I always giggled because your beard was tickling me.I still have a photo of us kissing in a drawer,but I hadn’t looked at it for a while,because I know I start crying.Not because we broke up.But because I know that a very big part of me is missing.I feel constant cold.I can’t listen to most songs in my mp3,cause something in my chest starts to ache.I don’t no kisses,hugs or sex,though everything was perfect.I need to just to be by my side once in a while.

You are my vitamin.My sun.My fire.My smile.You are me,and I’m you.

I MISS YOU.PLEASE COME BACK.